But today I am feeling in great need of prayer, so I'm going to put this out there and hope people know my heart.
I took misoprostol this morning to start this miscarriage. I'm 9 weeks and 3 days, and we've known for weeks our baby died. Unfortunately my body doesn't know it yet. This medicine will bring this scary and sad chapter to an end, which although hard right now, in the long run is for the best.
I wish I was a little bit more brave...but truthfully I'm scared. I've had several big crying jags in the last 24 hours leading up to this, and the worst isn't over yet. I really could use the prayers of my friends and family right now, so I'm putting my pride aside to ask.
I have a post I'm working on for Friday- I have had many requests from readers who need help with their adoptions, and I had to turn so many down the past few months in order to focus on the Jolly's adoption. One of the things that really helps me when I'm worried or upset is to take my eyes off my own problems and put them on someone else's need. The post I'm working on is very therapeutic for me, and I am praying it helps these families get some of the help they need.
I was going to feature one of these families in Friday's post, but I heard a little rumor that they could really use some encouragement today. I met Jennifer Willis through blogging last year- Jennifer actually found out about Reece's Rainbow through Lily's blog and is now in the process of adopting two beautiful little girls with Down syndrome as a result. And if that isn't encouraging enough, she lives 45 minutes away from me...which means some day I actually get to meet some of these precious orphans I've been blogging for. Talk about rewarding !
|Emilie and Abigail|
So I have two favors to ask readers today...and I know I'm always asking for favors, so I hope I haven't worn out my welcome with you. The first is that you pray that this medicine works speedily and as pain-free and complication-free as possible. Pray that I can recover quickly and be the mama I need to be to my children. And pray for my emotions...because I'm pretty much a wreck today. I hate admitting that, but this isn't fun.
And secondly, will you help Jennifer and her husband today? They're doing a puzzle fundraiser, and it's so easy to help....just $5 to buy a puzzle piece to help bring their girls home. I know how easy it is to throw $5 away...a latte and a tip, a magazine, a burger and fries...and we wouldn't think anything of it. Will you take the time to bless this family? It would really brighten my day too...it probably sounds very selfish, but if I saw that chip-in go up it would go a long way to helping my emotions as well:)
Thank you as always for your incredible hearts for orphans, and thank you ahead of time for your prayers.
Lots of love,