I read a post on a message board about a mama who came here to read the "Welcome to Holland" analogy...I had copied it here just a little over a year ago, because it helped me so much-it spoke directly to those feelings of being in a new place and feeling somewhat lost and uncertain of what the future held.
Sure, you struggled in some areas... nursing was a challenge, and we spent four long months of pumping-crying-praying-trying-pressing-through til you finally got it. Staying awake for feedings was difficult for you, as was developing an appetite- I've never had a baby that I had to wake up in the middle of the night to feed! Gaining weight was equally challenging. We worked long and hard to get those extra calories in, spiking your bottles of pumped breast milk with a nutritional supplement.
We've only been here a year, sweet Lily. Just a year, and yet in some ways it feels like a lifetime ago that we stepped foot on Holland's grace-filled soil. Every now and then I get a glimpse of other places we thought we'd go...postcards from Italy telling us of towering cathedrals and Tuscan villas..
But honestly, Lily? Honestly I wouldn't trade this journey for Rome in all its glory. After all, I'm not just a tourist anymore....I've planted gardens here, and welcomed strangers too.
We sailed across the ocean just for you
Not where we intended to go
Holland’s nice and the people kind
The mountains high and the valleys are low
But in the mountains we saw a sign
And the valley we found -
When I see your face, a Lily grew in the hardest place
When I see your face, I see the love of God and His grace
But when the seas come pouring in, and the dikes they want to blow
And the life I hold on to makes me feel like letting go…
I’ll put on my wooden shoes, and go dancing by the sea with you
Is like a mother’s love
Is like a father’s heart for his children... beautiful, beautiful
Is like a brother’s hug
Is like a sister’s knowing love... beautiful, beautiful you