Yesterday you went for your nine month check-up. You are a whopping 12 pounds. Just barely on the charts for ds..Sooo...you're going to be tiny. We like tiny.
You have roseola right now. And you know what's funny about that? Somehow I find it comforting that you got the same childhood illness that all of your siblings had before they turned a year old. You really are more alike than different:)
Something else that is comforting- and it is strange that it is- is that you have been extremely fussy for the past week. You had a fever last Thursday through Sunday night. It finally broke, and on Monday morning you woke up covered with a rash..so Mama knew from 9 previous children that you had roseola. And I knew why you had been SO fussy. So why is that comforting? Because the baby who never cries has been crying and wanting to be held for days on end, and now I know you can cry! I always wondered if it was somehow physically impossible for you to really cry, not just whimper, because we've only seen it twice...when you were having your blood drawn. Well, now I know- you can cry just like all the rest of your brothers and sisters. And you milk it for all it's worth when you're sick!
Grammi read my post yesterday about Holland and said the sweetest thing- to trust our travel agent:) Isn't that what all of life comes down to? We can feel so lost or uncertain about the journey we're on, but when we put our lives in God's hands, we can trust that He is taking care of us.
I read the sweetest story today on another blog. It was about a couple learning at birth that their baby girl had ds. The daddy was having a very hard time with the unexpected diagnosis. But right in the NICU where their baby girl was being taken care of, another baby girl with ds was being treated. Only this baby's parents knew ahead of time that she had ds...and they were adopting her. They were adopting her because she had ds, Lily. That spoke volumes to this grieving daddy, and the families became fast friends. A year later the parents adopted another baby, this time a boy, with ds. Their adventures are one of my favorite blogs to read.
Because you know what? Like the statement "trust your travel agent", it's all about perspective. This couple's perspective was that a baby with ds wasn't just tolerated- she was desired. And their blog just radiates joy and happiness and love. Nothing scary, no grieving, no worries...This couple sees humor and fun in every day life, and they inspire me to just enjoy you, and leave the future in the travel agent's hands.
I feel like I've learned a lifetime's worth of lessons in 9 short months of loving you, Lily Anne. God knew just what I needed when He sent me you:)