Baby number 11:
I think about him/her all the time. I mean all the time. I wonder who he/she is, and I wonder how Lily is going to handle his/her arrival. Lily is so very much the baby of the family, and even though I know she will adore this baby, as she adores all babies or baby dolls.. I'm thinking there will be a few jealousy issues. Even though there will be almost three and a half years between Lily and baby #11, she is much more on par with an 18 month old as far as cognition, etc...so I'm anticipating some of that sibling angst we've been through before. I keep telling myself that our other kids always weathered through fine eventually, and this time will be no different. But part of me wants Lily to stay our baby as well, which is creating a lot of emotional turmoil. Not that I don't already have a lot of emotions these days- pregnancy hormones are raging for sure. One second I'm giddy with excitement over this last stage of pregnancy, the next I'm crying on the phone to Sam wondering how I can make it through 8 or 9 weeks more. I'm a lil' schizo these days. I admit it.
Grief, Hope and Miracles :
I had so much feedback on this series. My heart just goes out to so many mamas who have experienced loss far greater than what I have. I am so amazed at these women who have shared their stories...so blown away by their strength and their faith, and so inspired to lean more heavily into Jesus during the hard times of my life. I am so honored to share their stories here, and so encouraged by their testimonies about the grace of God carrying them through.
A Penny From Heaven
I have a big giveaway coming up next week on A Perfect Lily. We'll be aiming at helping Penny's family adopt her, and helping them in a big way. I hope you will tune in, and pray, and help me spread the word about her adoption. It's been a long time since I held a giveaway on Lily's blog, and I am so excited to see what God will do next week. PLEASE be praying about this !!
Earlier this week I wrote a post called Get Over Yourself. I had so many comments on that post- sweet, encouraging, uplifting comments, and I was overwhelmed by your love and graciousness. The intent of that post was not to solicit that kind of encouragement, but to confess my weaknesses and sort through the feelings I had ever reading some negative comments on another site. I just wanted to thank you all for taking the time to leave a comment, because it really, REALLY did help me. It helped too, to see how many people go through the exact same struggles I do. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing your hearts here with me. oxox
My little girl is growing up. Look at that picture of her above. Where did my baby go ?? Her grammi made that ducky cap for her...I have to say that even though we are Beaver fans here in Corvallis, I absolutely love this cap :) Lily paraded around the house for fifteen minutes with it on, peeking out from under the bill like she was the coolest little duck ever. Thank you, Mom, for always blessing us with your sewing and quilting skills !!
Told you this was a random post.
It's 10:52 and Sam just came downstairs to rebuke me and tell me to get into bed.