Thursday, March 21, 2013

26 minutes

Dearest Baby Emma,


I've only had the privilege of knowing you through your mama's words since last November, but I feel so connected to you because of them. You've been in our family's thoughts and prayers since the day your mommy introduced herself through an email. I've read her words out loud to my husband, or at least tried to... because most of the time I couldn't get past the lump in my throat. You have an amazing mommy, Baby Emma.


Tonight I received an email from her telling me all about you... how you were born yesterday at 6:21 a.m., how you were beautiful - big blue eyes, fuzzy blond hair, and a button nose... and how you spent 26 minutes in this world before passing to the next.


26 minutes.





In 26 minutes I could clean up the morning dishes, make lunch for all my children, tuck them into bed after saying our goodnight prayers....


But 26 minutes was all your mommy and daddy had to meet you, say hello, goodbye.






And yet I know from your mama's words that those 26 minutes were the most precious, most beautiful minutes of her life, and that if she had to do it all over again - knowing how hard it would be to let you go - she'd do it in a heartbeat...for those 26 minutes.

Tonight your mama is my hero, Baby Emma. Because there wasn't a shred of bitterness or regret in the words she wrote to me, but rather thankfulness.

"We thank God for allowing us those 26 minutes, minutes we didn't even know we would have.

 We sang to her, rocked her, and kissed her a million times. I whispered in her ear how much she is loved by us and by God. Emma knew only love while she was here on earth and that is what she taught us. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, and endures all things and that is what Emma has eternally imparted and imprinted on our hearts."




I have a hard time looking at the picture above, dearest Baby Emma. The tears in your daddy's eyes, and the tender way your mommy held you, studying every feature I'm sure, and storing the memories in her heart like pearls on a strand....I know every day that passes she'll treasure those memories, and no matter how much time there is between now and when she sees you again, she will never forget your sweet newborn smell, those delicate rosebud lips, the warmth of your tiny body in her arms.

And if I have a hard time just looking at that picture - of love and grief all mixed into 26 minutes - what did your mommy and daddy and grandma and auntie feel? I can't imagine what they walked through in those 26 minutes, cannot wrap my mind around that kind of emotion and experience.

But you know what I see in those pictures as well?

The grace of God.

He carries us through things we thought we never could endure, He gives us grace to bear the unthinkable, and He wraps His arms around us in our darkest hours...

He knows what it is to lose a child.

And even though I can't explain why bad things happen to good people, why there is suffering in the world, and why it seems sometimes that our prayers go unanswered...I believe God is good.

Life can be hard, but God is good,.

 I am so honored to have grown to know your family, Baby Emma, because I know right now they are going through the hardest thing any parent could ever go through, and that they are trusting in God.

"The grief that we feel is unspeakable and my heart and arms ache for our baby girl. But I believe that God is holding her now. I wasn't ready to let her go, but I pray she is at peace."





You had a host of prayer warriors ushering you into the world, sweet Emma. We held you in our hearts and held your name before the throne of God, and we were blessed and honored to be able to pray for you and your amazing family.

You lived for 26 minutes on this side of Heaven, but in that short time you made an impact on so many. Some people take a lifetime to do what you did. You've touched the hearts of so many with your story, and we won't forget you. We're praying for your mommy and daddy and loved ones, praying so very much for the comfort of God for them, and for that peace that passes all understanding.



I don't know what it feels like to have 26 minutes to say hello and goodbye to a child, but I do know this:

 He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.
Revelation 21:4
 

I'm so looking forward to that day, Baby Emma.



With all my heart,

Patti oxoxox








59 comments:

Shanel Wion said...

She is beautiful. I had my Levi for 7 weeks before he went to heaven. 29 minutes..... it's so hard o understand. May God grant baby Emma's mommy and daddy the peace that passes understanding. Please let them know that the IDSC has a love and loss group on Facebook they can join when they are ready.

Nicole Brown said...

She is gorgeous.. Sending love to everyone ❤

Ashlee said...

What an unbelievably beautiful story! Praying for this sweet family and so thankful for the life changing 26 minutes they spent with their precious Emma. To only know love your whole life is a gift, they gave her a beautiful gift, as she did them.

gforcemama said...

oh Patti ... I pray our merciful God can bless their faith with eventual peace ... Sending many prayers and much love.

heather said...

Beautiful baby girl. Sending lots of prayers to this family. What a blessing that they she was strong enough to endure labor and be held in the loving arms of her parents. As hard as it is, what a blessing that they got that glimpse of heaven and now their sweet Emma is watching over them and waiting patiently up in heaven to be reunited again one day. <3

heather said...

Beautiful baby girl. Sending lots of prayers to this family. What a blessing that they she was strong enough to endure labor and be held in the loving arms of her parents. As hard as it is, what a blessing that they got that glimpse of heaven and now their sweet Emma is watching over them and waiting patiently up in heaven to be reunited again one day. <3

Kristy Sayer @ Southern In Law said...

Oh how my heart breaks for that precious family. I am in awe of their courage, their strength and their unwavering love for their sweet baby girl.

I'll be praying for them all and beautiful Emma. Thank you for sharing their story Patti, it's such a beautiful story and I am sure little Emma will leave her impression on many, many hearts.

Mary said...

Sending prayers! So thankful she shared so we can have the humble part in praying for them. Such beautiful faith and joy.May they find everlasting comfort in those precious twenty six minutes.

EN said...

God bless this beautiful family. It must be incredibly painful and difficult to understand. There are parts of God's plan that seem to make no sense to us. However, I'm sure everyone in that room would tell you that they are better for the impact that Emma has had on them. What a beautiful little angel - Mom described her perfectly. I will keep this family in my prayers.

Elissa said...

She is so beautiful. I am so sorry that things did not turn out as we had all prayed and hoped. I know that it is not for us to understand why these things happen. God bless the family and little Emma. "She only knew love." and she will only know love for the rest of eternity.

Deanna said...

Oh my, I am sobbing over breakfast while i read this. Sobbing. What a beautiful story of love, grace, and the ultimate goodness of God even when life gets hard. Blessings and prayers to this wonderful family during this time grieving this wonderful life.

Deanna said...

Btw, this brings back so many memories. Emma is the name my sister chose for her baby born a few weeks ago. Monday we mourn the passing of her baby John who only lived a week. So many emotions attached to that name.

Suzanne said...

Praying for this precious couple and their family.

Amy said...

Love & prayers to baby Emma's parents.

ckbrylliant said...

Heartbreakingly beautiful. Praying for Emma, her parents, and their extended family. Hugs.

Becca said...

I am praying today for you and your family. I have no words...so a verse. "May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit."
Romans 15.13. May you know this great hope, peace and joy as you trust Him in the days, months and years ahead.

Rochelle said...

Emma is absolutely beautiful. Holding this family up in prayer. Thank you for sharing their story.

Anna Theurer said...

*tears* Emma is beautiful. Praying for her family.

Suzanne said...

My heart goes out to Beautiful Emma and her family. How wonderful that her 26 minutes in this world were filled with nothing but love and tenderness. Her mommy and daddy should be proud that in her few fleeting moments here she made the world a better place. My love goes out to them, and I pray that they find their hope and strength in the God of all comfort until that day when they can hold their sweet girl again.

my family said...

still praying for comfort for the family during this time of loss as we do not always understand God's plans

Crystal said...

My heart sank as soon as I saw the blog title, because I knew what it would mean. But still so thankful for the chance her parents got to have her, and us too in some small way.

Elle's mommy said...

My heart aches and tears flow...we will be praying for this sweet mama and daddy. We LOVE that verse, He WILL wipe away every single tear...

Thank you for sharing this sweet little Emma with us

Patti said...

Jessie...I'm copying all the comments from my instagram photo of you here so you can be read them as well. oxoxPatti

cheryl wharton said...

Such a beautiful baby born to a special family. God must have very special plans for her. Giving my own little Grace extra cuddles this morning in celebration of her extra specialness ❤

moffy28 said...

Beautiful. Bless Emma and her amazing, amazing parents

thepitts said...

Thank you Patti for sharing Emma's story with us. Thinking of that amazing family so much today. You are a very good friend xx

leap4yearsjpl said...

on many hearts, you have been loved and you are being loved now! God has a specific plan for your family but first we pray that your story is told and remembered! I will pray for your family for i know how hard it i is first hand, I know a you 8 yr. old that suffers from SMA. You will never be forgotten and your life will be cherished by many! Praise God for those few special moments that you and your family shared!!

Kelle Hampton said...

Wow. Thank you Patty. To be loved and held by a mama for even just 26 minutes is a gift. Xo

leeann armitage said...

So beautiful. Stay strong mama. Prayers for sweet Emma & your family. We can't imagine the beauty Emma is experiencing right now! xo

leeann armitage said...

So beautiful. Stay strong mama. Prayers for sweet Emma & your family. We can't imagine the beauty Emma is experiencing right now! xo

shannon blaeske said...

Tears, that mama is beautiful and strong. Emma, you are too, sweet angel baby.

Racie Tay said...

God only ordains his child's deep disappointment and profound suffering in order to give him or her far greater joy in the glory he is preparing to reveal (Romans 8:18)

Janie Fox said...

Tears. I remember the saying goodbye. I'm praying for them. Hard, hard days but Jesus is there thru it all. He carried us.

elizdemar said...

Beautiful photo, precious baby. Prayers for God's mercies.

jenlac4 said...

Read your blog while I blinked the tears away. Prayers for the family.

gratefully blessed mama said...

Thank You so much for sharing your inspiring friend and her sweet angel Emma with us. Through tears I have prayed. Jessie truly is a Hero as you said. I will forever remember her grace and faith in my heart

samsb said...

Thank you for sharing this with us so that we may pray over them. Your words were beautiful & I pray that God will use them in the healing He is so good to bring.

ekogler said...

Praying. Such a beautiful family.

tine_mom said...

Beautiful. All of my prayers are with Jessie, her husband and their beautiful angel, Emma.

forevermoores said...

Such a beautiful post Patti; we will be praying for baby Emma's family. My heart aches for them!!! Xo

11fromheaven said...

Well that's what I get for bringing my phone with me and reading your blog in public. Now I'm crying in the orthodontics. Such a sweet and beautiful 26 minutes shared with us. And reading the letters leading up to the birth. Knowing the anxiety of the unknown and desperately wanting your baby. My heart hurts for this sweet mama as her arms will surely ache for her baby in the coming days. Praying for them, thanks for sharing this so we can stand along side them and help lift them up <3

partyoften said...

She's so beautiful

manilamama said...

dearest emma, you will always be loved and cherished. may your mom and dad remain strong, steadfast and hopeful. thank you patti for sharing their beautiful story.

nicole said...

God bless them for giving such a beautiful witness to the gift of life and how to receive and surrender it. Praying for them.

nicole said...

God bless them for giving such a great witness on how to receive and surrender the gift of life. Praying for them.

Tammie said...

That was beautiful Patti, my heart breaks for this family whom I do not know but will be in my thoughts and prayers. I am so happy that they were able to have her for 26 very short minutes to tell and show her their love.

eliz said...

She is beautiful! My girls in Heaven (Joy, Angel and Molly) are rejoicing with her. Praise God! She is fearfully and wonderfully made! (((HUGS))) prayers and crying tears of joy with you!

angie said...

What an amazing testament to the precious gift of life. While I am crying for their loss, I am rejoicing that there are people like this that choose life even when the outcome is unsure. What courage and love... I am truly inspired. Baby Emma is now in perfect peace with Jesus. I will be praying for Jessie and Tim- for healing and that they will be blessed with children, and one day their whole family will be reunited in heaven. Thank you Jessie and Tim for sharing your sweet angel with all of Patti's readers. God bless you.

Monique said...

She is beautiful. Sending the family love and much prayer as they deal with this loss. Rest with Jesus sweet Emma.

Debra Bates said...

Love and Prayers for this precious family

Debra Bates said...

Love and Prayers for this Precious family.

Danielle said...

heart breaking. my heart aches with them. precious post Patti. You are so much better than I at finding words.

cara said...

What a beautiful baby girl!!! I cannot imagine the emotion they are going through. I cannot imagine having to let go of that newborn baby. But I do know that we can trust God and depend upon Him. I will be continuing to pray for them. Thank you for updating and sharing. xoxo

ElaineD said...

I accdentallnstumbled on your blog this week, read your post about Emma and her family and have been praying for them ever since. Thank you for the updates--and thanks to Jessie and Tim for their courage and for their testimony of faith as they've walked this hard road. Y'all haven't been alone--you just didn't know those of us who were with you these past few days.

Anna T said...

Praying for her dear mommy and daddy during this time of sorrow, that they will continue to run to Jesus and His comfort and peace. Prayers...Anna T

Gretchen said...

You know, how blessed is sweet Emma, to know nothing but love? I know it is not what her family wanted and they are stuck here on Earth picking up the pieces...But, really? Emma's entire LIFE, she knew nothing but love. Sweet, endearing, unconditional love. Prayers from So Cal for peace and comfort in this awful time of grief.

Jane George said...

just in bits here! sending the family my prayers and love!!! xxxxx

Merideth said...

Heartbroken, and filled with gratitude that they got 26 precious, amazing minutes with her ....what a beautiful little girl. She will always be remembered with love. ♥

Merideth

miss s said...

Beautiful, gorgeous baby Emma. Brought to Heaven full of love. My heart goes out to your family xx