I woke up this morning to emails from Julia and Michelle Z saying Artem's grant had grown to over ten thousand dollars. I was wildly ecstatic and even posted about it, only to take it down mere moments later. (if you kept coming back here to see where my "Shout it from the Rooftops" post went, it is in cyber
Anyhoo, Artem's grant grew magically over night, and just as magically disappeared. Well, not all of it, but the large chunk that had tipped him over the ten thousand mark. Michelle Z doesn't know if the donor changed his/her mind, or if there were bank issues, but as it stands that big donation is still gone. So down came my victory post, and my morning elation as well...and it just got uglier from there.
I realized late this afternoon that I haven't seen Lily's birth video for awhile. It's one of those small video tapes that goes in the camera, not a big easy-to-find one. I spent the next hour and a half frantically searching for it, because it dawned on me that I haven't seen it since her birthday last year. So after dinner tonight my son Caleb and I spent over two hours methodically going through every box, drawer, cabinet, etc. in our house in search of that tape. I'm not the kind of person that randomly sticks things in drawers~ we hold to that motto "a place for everything and everything in its place" in our house, so our options for places to search were sort of limited. But because I was so desperate, I searched in places I would never put a video tape, since I don't know where else it could be...all to no avail.
What is so depressing is that a few years ago we were traveling and left our (old) video camera and video tapes in our hotel room. When we checked out we didn't realize it was missing- until that afternoon. We called the hotel immediately, and nobody could find our camera or tapes...all the videos we had ever taken of our kids' birthday parties, births, etc. Those were some of my happiest memories, and although I have pictures, I have no videos of my kids growing up.
So now that I can't find the video of Lily's birth, which was one of the most special times in our life for many reasons...I am really not feeling in the best blogging mood! I'm praying it turns up, but I honestly don't know where else it could be...I'm having visions of it being accidentally thrown in the trash last year when my husband moved his office to the sitting room off our bedroom, and then back to the church again when the remodel was done....lots of things were sorted through and dumped, and it would have been very easy for one little tape sitting on a desk to get tossed.
I'm trying to console myself with the thought that a)it might turn up some day and b)a hundred years ago nobody had video tapes of their children's births to look back on and c)there are bigger things in life to get upset over....
I'm also trying to look on the bright side that Artem's grant has just as much potential to jump over night as it did last night, and we still have 12 days to go til the end of October to reach our ten thousand dollar goal. And the fact that with so many people praying for him right now, his family has just got to be on the near horizon...
But lack of sleep and lots of frustration just has me ready to call it a day right now. So I hope you'll just forgive this little rant and enjoy some sweet pictures of Lily ... while I go cry into my pillow:)
Lily, stop pulling out your pigtails!
Still cute as ever:)
Okay, admittedly I am not feeling as sad now, after looking at these adorable pictures. It's pretty hard to be down with those sweet little almond eyes grinning up at me!
Please don't forget our five dollar challenge for Artem. It's wonderful to see huge donations come in, but it's equally fabulous to see LOTS of little ones add up to a miracle for this little guy...
And if you donate to Artem, please be sure to leave a comment so that you can be entered to win one of three autographed copies of Ann Voskamp's One Thousand Gifts...
We'll draw winners on November 1st...and please don't forget to spread the word-
Artem needs a family!!!