As I write to you tonight, you are sound asleep, tucked away in your co-sleeper. I hope your dreams are beautiful tonight...and what do babies dream of? I wish I knew. You smile so often in your sleep- even laugh! I love how your lips pucker and make a suck-suck sound while you lay dreaming.
When you were first born I couldn't stand to put you to sleep in your co-sleeper. You were so tiny- just over 5 pounds- and you just seemed too vulnerable lying there. And truthfully, I missed you being inside of me. You came 3 weeks early, and I just wasn't ready to be separated from you yet. So I slept with you curled up on my chest- a stack of pillows propping me from behind. An hour or so after you were sound asleep, I would finally slide you into your bed beside mine. But even that few inches seemed too far away for me...so I kept one handing resting on yours, so that if you stirred just a tiny bit, I would know.
You know what is amazing, sweet Lily? I'm still not ready to be separated from you. If I could carry you around all day and still get everything done, I would.
You still take several naps a day..and while you're sleeping, I just don't feel like "me." I'm still playing Mama to all your other siblings, juggling teaching and laundry and life...but it seems like we're all just practicing our lines, waiting til the real show begins. And then when you wake up, all the lights come and and we're all complete, ready for our little star to shine.
..and shine you do!! Your little smile just lights up the room, and we are all irresistably drawn to it.
For the past few weeks you've been waking up earlier than Mama. And your favorite thing to do when you first wake up is talk...mamamama or dadadada..and you are LOUD! So when your brothers or sisters hear you, they sneak into my room and pick you up without waking me...and
they hurry you off to their bedroom so they can play with you in the early morning hours while Mama sleeps. Cuz there are few things sweeter in life than a little Lilybird, bringing up the morning sun with her songs.
Our days are so filled with loving you, baby girl. Whether it's the quiet morning hours or happy afternoons or dream-filled night time..you make our lives richer and sweeter just by being you.
Loving you more every day,